Reminiscences

And so in the last few days, I read my blue dream book from those Seventies days so long ago and I was reminded that things ain't always what they seem.

One dear friend was pregnant at the time of writing and I dreamed her baby died.

I took no notice of all that because I thought that dreams were crap and of course my lovely friend delivered a healthy baby. Huh! I said to Jung! Huh I also said to anyone who may have though I had hidden hostility.

I lost that book for a time. I felt later, did the person who found the book suspect hidden hostility toward my friend?

If so, I thought I'd only found evidence against dream theory because I never then had any hostility toward that friend of mine and noone could ever persuade me otherwise.

Even if C was rich, beautiful charming and successful, I'd long ago learned that envy was a useless emotion. I somehow always knew she'd deliver a healthy child. Yeah, I was wrong on one count. I was sure she'd have a girl and it was a gorgeous little boy she bore, but I didn't care. I was prepared to respect instincts, not trust them utterly! And I blessed them all.

Ah, how much I'd have loved a tribe of kids and a happy family for myself. Too weak really, but all my friends who bore beautiful children are still in my heart.

Years later, in retrospect, I'd say that the stillborn factor I dreamed of with regard to my friend was perhaps the religion that eventually failed her.

There were a few Guru's in the Seventies times.

Thanks to Norm Habel and my studies, I simply stayed curious, I didn't go too far.

There was however, one Indian chap in the old days who knew a great deal about Philosophy and he seemed to have many insights into reality. I was glad my glamourous friend found a connection, but I hesitated for myself.

That Religion turned out to be run by greedy people and many devotees ended up in Shit Creek.

I think now that the dream was possibly prophetic in terms of stillborn philosophy and I wish it had worked out for the many people attracted to that particular spirituality.

Sometimes in the dream world, images can be pretty crass.

Somehow though, dreams provide strange forms of information.

Dreams aren't straightforward in any way whatsoever and when they are straightforward they may be terrifying.

I don't recommend that people study dreams unless they are desperate.